Can and Cannot
Several years ago, I was preparing to write for my 7th CD – If I Only Had Today. While writing the previous six CDs – I followed a pattern.
Not the best pattern.
Certainly NOT a pattern that is effective or one that I would recommend.
A pattern, that today, I would work on eliminating from my life.
It was a pattern filled with questioning and doubt. No sooner would I pick up pen and paper to begin writing, and I would question my ability to write. I doubted whether or not I was a good songwriter. I remember countless nights sitting at the piano in my living room and crying, doubting. My kind-hearted husband would come in everytime and gently tell me to “Buck up little songwriter, you can do it.”
I repeated this pattern over and over.
But as I approached the 7th CD…I decided to take a different approach.
I was not going to doubt.
I was not going to question.
I was not going to allow the negative thoughts to have even a speck of space in my mind.
I reassured myself that the Lord had helped me write six other CDs and He could help me write a 7th. I wasn’t going to worry or fret or cry or complain. I was going to trust and have faith and pray and have hope. Whenever a doubt-filled, unbelieving, negative thought came into my head, I chased it away with a prayer. I chased it away with words like, “You can do this Hilary. The Lord will help you. Just try.” I turned it over to Heavenly Father and tried to be positive.
I had a Completely. Different. Writing. Experience. I didn’t spend one night sitting in the living room crying. (I did it in the kitchen – JUST KIDDING!!) I didn’t doubt myself. My writing improved. I felt like it was my best work so far. It seemed easy. Nothing changed – except my attitude, the way I thought. I simply refused to entertain the negative thoughts. I had a plan of replacing them each time they crept in.
I look back on the experience of writing that CD and I feel happy. I feel like two mountains were climbed -
…a CD was created
…a pattern of doubt was replaced with a pattern of hope and faith.
It felt good.
Positive thinking feels good.
Its that simple.
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